Tired.
Tired of school. Tired of yearbook. Tired of most of the people at school. Tired of work. Tired of my situation. But I’m so close. I’m determined to see this through. 5 more months.
I’m trying to think of what else to put into Gabe’s care package for Valentine’s day and I remembered how the old guys at the tennis courts threw a party before he left for boot camp; he invited me but I didn’t know what going away present to give him so I didn’t go. It’s just weird thinking how everythings changed now :p
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I’ve been officially Gabe-less for a month. To stay positive I’m gonna write about the flashback I had during badminton:
12/23/2011 We were playing Apples for Apples with his cousins and I was leaning on him. He said something or he won a round, anyway something that constituted to me elbowing him hard in the stomach, but instead I got him on the balls. He ended up rolling on the floor in pain for awhile. Lol
I walked into Badminton and Andrea was wearing a US Navy pullover so it reminded me of that night since Gabe was wearing his Navy hoodie. Oh and she was also talking about how her boyfriend plays tennis, so yeah I remembered Gabe too and how before he left for boot camp over a year ago he tried to teach me tennis but I completely failed.
| Me: | Hey guess what? |
|---|---|
| G: | You cute :3 |
| Me: | Haha happy one month you dork :p |
| G: | Has it been a month already? |
| Me: | Yes, babe. Haha |
| G: | Well then happy one month baby ;) |
| Me: | Babe you fail -__- |
Crystal is so amazing.
2 weeks ago - 
2
2 Irked.
I wouldn’t have minded if you hadn’t promised. I couldn’t care less if you said you didn’t want to do what you promised to do. I would’ve understood. You might not have time. You might not want to put in the extra effort. No matter the reason for you not wanting to do it I would’ve just told you “Ok, never mind.” However, you can’t promise me that you’re going to do something and not follow through. You just left me hanging. That is so rude. Fuck you.
LMAO
Apparently Jenny and I are lesbian lovers. Funny shiz.
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements? Even if it leads nowhere.
Chasing Pavements, Adele
Gonna stay positive.
I can be a tough cookie too. :)
